J. and I find it really really easy to talk to each other about the life we want to live together. Tonight I feel like giving you a snapshot of that life... Our dreams about our future kids :)
We want to name them Keegan Alexander, and Kaylie Hope. (That is, if we have a boy and a girl. Either way we want to have two kids.) We talk all the time about the things we'll do with them, like read books before bed, have epic nerf gun wars, watch only a little TV, never make any implications about gender roles that are restricting, have tea parties and board game nights and go on adventures and be happy... We've decided that when we get pregnant, we'll keep the sex of the baby a surprise so that they'll only be bombarded with all the colors of the rainbow, not just pink or blue. We'll let Keegan play video games when he's six, and date when he's 12, and Kaylie can date when she's... 13? (Even though I'd rather make her wait till she's 39 ;D...) We already refer to them with pet names, Keeg and Kayl, and they feel as real to us as our own relationship is.
It's possible this behavior is unhealthy... I've learned the hard way that when I'm in a relationship, making plans for the future can sometimes lead to attachment to an idea rather than a person... But with J., I'm fairly sure that that will never be a problem; we talk about current events and feelings and hopes and dreams way more than we talk about K-squared. We don't obsess over them, but when we daydream and talk about what we want our lives to become, they come up a lot and we love to talk about them :)
The other day I was thinking about a lot of things, and since this isn't a blog about my philosophies outside of relationships, I'll only copy the part relevant to K-squared. Enjoy!
I want my children to be as tall as mountains and small as atoms and I want them to dream in the realms of all the gods ever dreamt of and prayed to, and to have the stars in their eyes lest they trip on the dirt of the earth. I want them to laugh for no reason at all and cry tears when they discover sadnesses that they will learn are not worthy of their tears at all. I want her to never be simply pretty, and I want him to never be simply a fun guy. I want them to be infinite and almighty and completely knowledgeable of the fact that they are not knowledgeable of anything at all. But most of all, I want them to feel loved.
Do you ever picture your future, your kids, your house? Does it make you feel silly? Have you never done it, and think I'm totally crazy??? Let me know!
See you when I see you.
A
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