Dreams

This is going to be an "I just woke up but I feel like talking about my feelings post". Oh boy.

Ever since J. and I started having a really serious relationship, about 4 months ago (wow it really has almost been 6 months!) I have dreamt about him almost every night since then, and in a good way. The dreams aren't usually the same... Sometimes we will just be together, like in school or the grocery store, or on a date, or in the car driving who knows where... Sometimes it will be about our future, getting married, having kids, our first house... Other times, though, it's about something bad or scary happening, and me needing him to help me fix it, or make me less scared. In any case, I dream about him a lot... Definitely more than I ever dreamt about any of my past partners.

I don't know if dreams mean anything. I don't know if they are an indicator that this man is my soul mate, or if they just mean that my hormones are crazy for him as much as I am, or if they mean absolutely nothing at all. But, I like the dreams. And naivety and false-hope be damned, I will take these dreams to mean all they possibly can. Because as long as my unconscious mind loves J. as much as I do every second I'm awake, why the hell not say that they are true and justified and that J. and I are soul-mates? I'm willing to go out on that limb for him. Because with this man, even if we don't end up together forever... I won't ever regret a millisecond of this time spent being with and dreaming of him. He is worth that, and more.

Do you dream? Do you let yourself love those dreams? Let me know.

See you when I see you.
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